soccer makes me feel like a loser

cca makes me feel like a loser...everytime i go for training..i get this feeling like i can communicate with the ppl there!!..dunno why...

went for my first blood donation today..so scared!!..but it was alright after that. I feel so fat!!..everyone who went with me were all taller..but they were all 'underweight'..so only i could donate blood...so if going there was not scary enough..i had to go donate blood by myself?!?!...thankfully the person who did the blood donation process was quite good..so didnt really feel any pain...only felt giddy during the transfusion part..
after the process..the person say i look pale..so i had to lie on the chair thingy for like 1/2 hr..beforet they came and let me go!!...so weird...tml sure got lots of sarcasm once ppl hear that only i could donate...so sian just thinking bout it...

hate feeling like a loser...