i thought i wouldnt use this blog anymore since i've gotten rid of it...but i cant stand it anymore!!..at least nowi can type freely since these post wont get posted up anyways!!

anyways..nowadays the Home has become a frustrating place to be at. the Grandmother's cranky and so it spread to the rest of the Family. when the Grandmother's cranky, she'll vent it out on all of us, esp my father. but since he's only at home after work and im having the holidays now, i get the majority of it. this is the main cause of my bad mood recently. the best thing is, the Grandmother doesnt know she's the cause of it. and she's damn happy and proud of herself of being able to notice the change in my mood.like DUH...if you cant notice it, you gotta be BLIND!!

that's the reason i'll never get married...why in the world would 2 ppl try SO hard to stay tgt and keep the Family tgt?its not only them who suffer ya?...the rest of the Famliy gets it too.

sometimes i wish....

i just wanna leave the Home, i wanna stay alone, all i'll have to deal with is myself.i know its selfish to think like that and to just want to run away from all this and leave the rest to deal with it..but...

however, the Plan has been thwarted, all thanks to my fractured wrist...DAMNIT..if not for the wrist, i would be working!!..and would be earning so much!!DMANIT