do i have the right to be here?

today i screwed up again-_-
i thought i would e more alert today...
but somehow, things just happen...
and i dont even know what's the cause?!
i spent half the day doing the restriction digestion and the results was negative?!
cant be right..cuz i've done this restiction digestion before and have gotton positive results...but somehow this time, the restiction enzymes didnt cut the vector-_-
and im freaking sure i did everything correctly..

shit man

now they'll label me as another student with lousy skills...
我不甘心！
i dont even know what's the cause...
真的，连跳进黄河都洗不清!!
pearlyn, moon...我来了!!

now i know how yamamoto feels when he rammed into the wall when he was SOOO close to defeating genkishi...
everything was going well...he was winning....seemed like he had the upperhand...
but everything ended when he crashed his head into a wall he couldnt see, a wall that he didnt even know was in the way..
its like falling...into a pit...

and it sucks..

do i have the right to be here?
did i make the right choice?
will everythinganything be the same when i get back?
i used to fear coming over...but now, im afraid of returning...