fear

as the attachment starts to come to an end, im starting to develop a fear and a unwillingness to return to sg...
yes, i do miss family and friends..
but..
im afraid.
afraid of the awkwardness of having to see them face-to-face
afraid of not being able to catch up studies, after all i've 'stopped' studying for 4 months, what if i've lost the momentum?!
afraid of not being able to catch up with peers
afraid of not being able to perform for fyp
afraid of not being able to perform for ccas..
afraid of....change, once again...after all, i took so long to get used to this place...

some random ppl have been telling me to get back to sg fast...
but its like..even when i was in sg, we dont meet up or interact much...how much difference would it make now that im over here and they are there?
but it still feels good that someone remembers you, right?

damn..my table's influtrated(dunno how to spell-_-) with ants!!