eh...what can i say except that im damn tired...

went for training yest...like so long never step onto the field...but...went training started...i didnt feel that feeling...you know..like happy to finally be on the field...only feel lethargic...like damn sian...maybe i've finally given up trying...used to think that if i tried my best...maybe i would improve or become good at it...but it seems like no matter how much i try..there's no difference...it sucks to see everyone around you improve while you remain stagnant...maybe its time to move on to something new...since the past 18years have been kinda like a waste...all these years...and still trying to find something that im good at...something that im here to do...

mum doesnt want to sign my indemnity form...no strength to argue or talk her into signing it...

wanted to watch the match against croatia yest...but the streaming was bad...

went to the hq this morning to paint the base for the 'mural' painting tml...found out that i overestimated the budget...oops..heehee...the guy say dont need to buy so much paint...so we only spent half of the estimated budget...umm..next time cannot do budget last min..haha...

went to work in the afternoon...still think its better to work at delta...spe's damn boring..and the lgs there are weird..not as friendly i guess..

sick of trying...
ah...whatever...
time will dull all emotions and rid the problems...really?